Six Years Ago

Six years ago I was shrouded in uncertainty and doubt.
Six years ago I was clinically depressed and at times, comtemplated suicide.
Six years ago I was underneath the weight of the ocean and had to roll pennies to buy milk and I learned that it was cheaper to make bread than to buy it.
Six years ago my marriage was failing, because of me.
Six years ago my kids were dependant on someone who couldnt even take care of themself.
Six years ago I went to church and prayed for adversity so that it would bring me the ability to move closer to God through prayer. As if I didn't already have enough adversity!
Five years ago I awoke to Icelandic sunrises and sat in wonder of the auroa borealis.
Five years ago I continued to pray for God to work through me to create peace within me.
Five years ago I went through an emotional and spritual transformation that I still don't understand, but it is not mine to question.
Five years ago we reinvented our marriage and find ways to fall in love all over again everyday.
Five years ago my kids got a mother made over.
Four years ago we became debt free.
Four years ago there became a consistent joy in my life that I had never had ability to accept before
Four years ago I re-learned how to love life and all of the people in it
Four years ago I was able to really give back to those in need.
Three years ago I walked a half marathon to raise money for breast cancer research
Three years ago I was blessed with a vegetable garden and flowers
Three years ago I prayed that God would take my internal joy and love and transform it yet again into a ball of light for all to see
Two years ago I was given countless opportunities to reach out and teach others to love and give.
Two years ago I continued to praise Him for bathing me in His blessings and grace.
One year ago I walked 26.2 miles, with only Christ by my side, in the driving rain for seven hours in order to find a cure for breast cancer. I have conquered my depression and most of my anxiety. I have a will to live and give like never before and am abundantly blessed so that I can do so easily and freely. God has blessed my marriage ten fold, he has blessed my children and friends, he finds us as the shepard finds the sheep that has strayed from the flock.

"I can do ALL things through Christ, who strenthens me" Phillipians 4:13
"Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint." Isaiah 41:30-31